Insomniac Gray

I see lots of you putting up dreams on your blogs, thinking that maybe they mean something. I had a dream last night, a nightmare that I can't seem to get out of my head. Maybe by writing it down here I can at least escape from it a little.

I was falling into a fire from a great height, and as I got closer I could feel its heat crackling on my skin. All around the shadows cast by the blaze were dancing and screaming, like cheering fans. Just as I was about to swan dive into the fire, I was caught by black tentacles that wrapped around my arms and legs. The fire was so intense I felt myself bubbling and swelling and melting. The fire reached up and spoke to me.

It said: “Come to me and I will save you from the darkness”

And the tentacles had no voice, but I felt words in my head, like weights directly on my brain.

They said: “Come with me and I will save you from the light”

I woke up screaming, and barely managed to get to the door of my room in time to lock it. We have a strict no locked doors policy in our house, but when I reassured my mom from the other side that I was totally fine she let me off with a warning. I couldn't let her in because when I woke up I saw the wall behind my bed was spotted with operator symbols. And very small in the corner (I almost didn't see it), the words “the fire will come to you”.  I must be sleep writing now.  My life gets better and better.

She'd send me back to the hospital if she saw this. I'd send me back to the hospital. This is breaking my head. I think I may stop taking my meds. Mixing drugs and Slender mind fucks seems like a bad idea.  

Hopefully I can get a little bit more sleep, I have to be up for school in a few hours.